It Doesnt Work To Fix Your Reflection

‎"Alternatively, do you try to reach into the mirror to fix your reflection? Of course not. Why would you try to reach into your reflection to change yourself? No one who understands what a mirror is would even think of trying to reach into the reflection. They would understand immediately that to fix the reflected image, they need to tend to themselves."

Its more than just setting boundaries of what is you and what is not you.

There is magic in it. Magic that has not been discovered by science. Not yet anyways.

Honey Baby Blues



God Help The Outcasts

Objectivity

I need to vent.

That being said, please dont be offended by anything that is said here.

Opinions are like assholes... everyone has them and they all stink.

Since I made the decision to go public with my Tarot readings I have started networking with other readers. This has been so amazing. I have gotton to know other people with my similar interests in the field.

As you may know if you have been following me is that I like to use the Tarot as a tool for counseling. Not really a fortune telling gimmick. This is my personnal preference.

The reason I like the Tarot and Psychology is because it is all objective. Or subjective.

Difference Between Objective and Subjective

The Tarot, to me is like a rorschach test. You see what you need to see. There is no right or wrong... it just "is".

Since I have started networking I have joined groups with people who have made a successful career out of reading the Tarot. I looked up to them. I found it amazing that not only were they able to make money doing it, but where successful in it. That is where I wanted to be.

I love Tarot/Psychology because there are no limits. There is so much freedom in it to develop your own personnal style. There are no rules and all that matters is the connections.  But I find myself becoming frustrated with some of these people.

One person said that an idea was "naiive" another simply said, "I disagree with your interpretation".

I was put off by this. I wanted to network with people so I could bring my ideas to the table and discuss them with others that have put forth their time and energy into Tarot. I wanted to grow from others and hope they walked away feeling the same.

To say such bold statements only create seperation. They close the door on expansion and growth. And to be honest, it pisses people off.  The purpose is to find our unity amongst our individuality.

I still dont understand how someone could be in this field and believe there is a right or wrong way of doing things. No way is better. Whether you are psychiatrist, psychologist, Tarot reader, or any other field of healing you should not draw such limitations in the sand.

When I worked as a floral designer I had the best boss in the world. She said we were "mini psychologists". Think about it... flowers = feelings. Birthdays, love, death, I'm sorry... etc. They are the physical manifestations of our internal expression of feelings.

The one thing that I feel is universal with healing is the willingness to be healed. That's it... love does the rest. Sure I may be a vessel to which that love works through but it is not because of my knowledge or will. It is my willingness to allow love to do the work through me.

When someone has the willingness to be healed you dont need a certificate, education, or occult knowledge to do so... all you need is a willing heart.

I know nothing. That is my mantra. I know nothing and I know no one. I am no expert at anything.  I am a student of life with every breathe I take.

Sure I like to learn. I read books. I collect ideas. I share my thoughts and feelings with others. I honor other people's processes. I am a thinker and I like the feeling of my mind being blown. I often keep myself in a state of utter confusion. But at the end of the day, I surrender all that I think I know and give thanks for another day of trying to figure it all out.

I have not been given the answer to the question that always burns in my heart, "Where do I belong?"

I know I am still "a work in progress". I am starting to just enjoy the journey and not worry so much about the destination.

I have gotten to the point when I listen to people debate and express their opinions and I tend to want to just get up and walk away... because I dont even care anymore. Dont get me wrong I love exchanging stories. But thats all they are... stories.

I'll listen to your stories... but I refuse to listen to your opinions. You want to debate... then you are right and I am wrong.

I could look at those 78 cards over and over a million times and see something new each and every time.

Thats what I love about them. You can explain to me ten different ways the universe works and I will smile and agree. But I no longer care "how" it works... I am just happy I am here. To enjoy the relationships that I make. To laugh, to love.... to eat ice cream and fart. To make love and have sex... to double bounce on a trampoline and to take long hot showers.

My Favorite High Priestess Card

Parenting

South Park

The link above is for the episode where the dog whisperer trains Cartman. I think every parent should watch this show.

Here are some quotes:

"So the child needs to learn he's not the most important person in the house... Im not looking at the child, Im not acknowledging the child, Im just letting the child know Im not interested in him... see the child thinks your world revolves around him becuase it does..."

"Dont reason with it, dont argue with it... just dominate!"

‎"When you correct the behavior... eventually there will be a change in the personality"

Even if you aren't a huge fan of South Park, this one is worth watching... give it a chance and watch the whole thing.

The message is for all the parents who allow the children to rule their lives. In the end, they raise selfish narcissistic children that are let into the world.

You are not their friend, you are their parent.

Individuality

KNOW THYSELF

This is what the Tarot is all about. Getting to know yourself on the deepest level. To dig out all those false beliefs that stand in your way. To retrain your brain. To obtain understanding and trust in a world that is sometimes scary and overwhelming.

Our greatest mission on earth is to figure out just who we are. What is us and what is not us. The more we fine tune ourselves the more we can love the individuality that each person possesses. Although we are all cut from the same clothe we each are special on our own way.

Stand By Me

The Fool

"In this age, everyone is teaching how to let go, trust God, Be in the "now", be free. The fool lacks Judgement. The fool lacks the ability to use reason. Is the fool a joke? Or is the Fool the key? The fool is Zero... nothing. Yet everything."

 ‎"The fool provides entertainment. But if we look a little deeper it is often more than entertainment. The fool gets to tell the truth, the hard truths that might cause trouble if anyone else tells them."

‎"He speaks in jest and we laugh. He speaks in parables and we struggle to understand."

"The fool plays and everybody knows that play is not serious so he can accomplish the difficult, controversial issues in play."

"The fool that would bring out those aspects of ourselves that society doesn't approve of and which it sees as "subversive" or "undesirable" is the one who challenges conformity and spurs us to question and maybe to change."

And I'm Still Standing Three of Wands

The Three Of Wands

I always had a hard time talking with this card. It always just looked like waiting to me. I drew it often and always thought... yeah I am still waiting for my ship to come in.

I felt the guy was standing there waiting to be rescued from something. Which is how I felt whenever I pulled this card.

Today I see something different. The man is alone on this island (Or so I imagine). He is looking out at the boats which holds people. Its like what he wants is over "there" and he is over "here".

The man has obviously been productive and has survived despite his isolation.

I have battled loneliness my entire life. I lacked foundation in my family life and I created this "bubble" so to speak to protect myself and survive. A very dissociative way of living in the world. Now I am older and have popped my bubble yet I still battle the feelings of me being here and the rest of the world being over there.

I do always feel like I am waiting for someone to come. Like I am standing on the cliff desperately wanting to be seen and rescued. In my deck the ships look like they are sailing away as if they dont even see me.

I always think of Tom Hanks in Castaway... he gets so lonely he talks to a volleyball. Neurosis sets in and all he has left to comfort him is the human will to survive.

Like the movie The Blue Lagoon I feel like I am in this jungle of a world and I am left to fend for myself.

This, of course, is part of my conditioning as a child and my beliefs that no one is here to support me. Something I battle with every day of my life.

I suppose this is a sad interpretation of this card... but it is one none the less... this is what I see today... it is what I see to help me work through my psychological issues.

Today I see a card of feeling abandoned and forgotten yet not in a five of pentacles type of way... I and surviving and self reliant yet I observe humanity from a distance. I can see it in my view but it is out of my reach.

As I stand on firm hard land, I look out to the emotional waters of what my heart wants yet is not in my physical reality. The shoreline draws a distinct line from the land to the water. It serves as a boundary I have drawn for myself... representing the bubble in a way. My island.