Subconsciously, I know everything. It is my direct link to the collective unconscious.
The Moon, being of the subconscious, is limitless, and infinite... and the High Priestess is the gatekeeper of this knowledge.
It is all the is hidden and dark....
The Chariot, holds both the conscious mind and the subconscious mind with the reigns.
Steer too much into the subconscious and you are entering the wilderness.
The place where anything can go... Chaos.
Imagination runs wild in the moonlight.
The fact of the matter is, YOU are in control of both... no boogeymen can lurk from the darkness and terrorize your life without your say so....
Once the subconscious mind is harnessed... reigned in... you are then able to use it at your will to do magical things.
I pick and choose what I allow my subconscious to be used for.
When someone is no longer terrorized by their Fears and actually allow the High Priestess to open the gate and poor Knowledge and Truth into your heart.
I am Worthy.
Saturday, September 10, 2011
September 10 Tarot Reading
I know I committed myself to writing a blog everyday... and I have already dropped the ball.
I have been having so much fun doing my Tarot readings and so many magical things have happened in my life lately that I dont even know where to start.
So I will just draw a spread:
: )
Present: Six of Pentacles
GIve and take. One must give before they receive. Send out the Energy to allow it to come back to you... Karma.
I am now going public with my knowledge. I have started to offer my services to others... and in turn, will reap the rewards of sharing my gift with the world.
Problem: Ten of Swords
I have to admit... I have a little mental burnout... I CANT HELP IT I AM SO FULL OF SPIRIT!!!
Above: Three of Pentacles
I want to work more... I want to keep up the pace... I want to learn more, do more readings, I am on a roll.
Below: Eight of Swords (Reversed)
I am no longer bound. I have cut the ties to my insecurities...
Past: The Moon (Reversed)
I have left darkness... everything is in the light and CLEAR.
Future: Page of Swords
Seems like the mental burnout of the Ten of Swords is warning me that I need to take a break otherwise I might feel like I can no longer wield my Truth correctly.
Affecting Me: Death (Reversed)
Old thoughts are being stripped away... Time to chill out and let this card do its work.
External Influences: King of Pentacles
I am becoming an adept. A professional : )
Hopes and Fears: Four of Cups
I dont want to get self-absorbed. I want to keep God in the picture. Not me.
Final Outcome: The Devil
I think me and the Devil have a pretty good relationship at this point... this card has taught me so much.
I suppose this time it is trying to tell me to keep a healthy balance and the right mind set to continue. Maybe a do need a little break....
I have been having so much fun doing my Tarot readings and so many magical things have happened in my life lately that I dont even know where to start.
So I will just draw a spread:
: )
Present: Six of Pentacles
GIve and take. One must give before they receive. Send out the Energy to allow it to come back to you... Karma.
I am now going public with my knowledge. I have started to offer my services to others... and in turn, will reap the rewards of sharing my gift with the world.
Problem: Ten of Swords
I have to admit... I have a little mental burnout... I CANT HELP IT I AM SO FULL OF SPIRIT!!!
Above: Three of Pentacles
I want to work more... I want to keep up the pace... I want to learn more, do more readings, I am on a roll.
Below: Eight of Swords (Reversed)
I am no longer bound. I have cut the ties to my insecurities...
Past: The Moon (Reversed)
I have left darkness... everything is in the light and CLEAR.
Future: Page of Swords
Seems like the mental burnout of the Ten of Swords is warning me that I need to take a break otherwise I might feel like I can no longer wield my Truth correctly.
Affecting Me: Death (Reversed)
Old thoughts are being stripped away... Time to chill out and let this card do its work.
External Influences: King of Pentacles
I am becoming an adept. A professional : )
Hopes and Fears: Four of Cups
I dont want to get self-absorbed. I want to keep God in the picture. Not me.
Final Outcome: The Devil
I think me and the Devil have a pretty good relationship at this point... this card has taught me so much.
I suppose this time it is trying to tell me to keep a healthy balance and the right mind set to continue. Maybe a do need a little break....
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
September 7, 2011 Tarot Reading
Present: Ten of Rods
I want to bring in my harvest.
Problem: Seven of Swords
I have to leave any thought patterns of the old ways.
Above: Wheel Of Fortune
I am descovering who it is I want to be.
Below: Justice
Of course, I knew I was going to pull this card from how I ended my last blog.
My work is paying off.
Past: King of Swords
I am the master of expressing my thoughts.
Future: The Fool
And so it begins...
Affecting Me: Ten of Swords
I'm putting all this mental struggle to rest now.... and only action remains.
External Influences: Queen of Swords
I am the master at digesting my thoughts.
Hopes and Fears: Ten of Pentacles
I WANT IT ALL... do I have the guts to allow it?
Final Outcome: Seven of Rods
Stake my Claim... Stay on Top.
I want to bring in my harvest.
Problem: Seven of Swords
I have to leave any thought patterns of the old ways.
Above: Wheel Of Fortune
I am descovering who it is I want to be.
Below: Justice
Of course, I knew I was going to pull this card from how I ended my last blog.
My work is paying off.
Past: King of Swords
I am the master of expressing my thoughts.
Future: The Fool
And so it begins...
Affecting Me: Ten of Swords
I'm putting all this mental struggle to rest now.... and only action remains.
External Influences: Queen of Swords
I am the master at digesting my thoughts.
Hopes and Fears: Ten of Pentacles
I WANT IT ALL... do I have the guts to allow it?
Final Outcome: Seven of Rods
Stake my Claim... Stay on Top.
Amazing
Yesterday's studies have paid off wonderfully. Life is beginning to unfold.
Having dropped so much baggage, I feel at ease. This, for anyone that knows me, is big.
Things are changing.
I remember this time last year, I was so wrought with torment and Fire that I could do almost nothing that wasn't painful. Internally painful.
At one point, I decided to stop beating myself up for not doing what I thought I was suppose to be doing. Or for doing things I felt I shouldn't have been.
I remember one day saying... I am going to do something I want RIGHT NOW.
I went and took a bath. Then I said, "What do I want to do next?"... then I did it. I did whatever the hell I wanted for the next two days. Obligations were thrown out the window.... I did nothing for anyone. I did what I wanted. Anything to make a little tiny change... then another step and another.
No matter how absurd or guiltily the Sins felt, I did them anyways... under control. I chose to do them... not my addictions.
If at that moment I wanted to devour a pint of Ben and Jerry's... so be it... guilt free.
After two days of allowing myself to do whatever, whenever, I started to feel better. Feeling better made me actually WANT to do the things I so dreaded to do before.
I was able to release the desires that I denied myself of.
Once satisfied.... Then came the Joy.
Over the following year, I backslid a lot. But I just said, "Tommorrow is another day."
And it always was.
And today, Justice has been served... my hard work is finally paying off.
Having dropped so much baggage, I feel at ease. This, for anyone that knows me, is big.
Things are changing.
I remember this time last year, I was so wrought with torment and Fire that I could do almost nothing that wasn't painful. Internally painful.
At one point, I decided to stop beating myself up for not doing what I thought I was suppose to be doing. Or for doing things I felt I shouldn't have been.
I remember one day saying... I am going to do something I want RIGHT NOW.
I went and took a bath. Then I said, "What do I want to do next?"... then I did it. I did whatever the hell I wanted for the next two days. Obligations were thrown out the window.... I did nothing for anyone. I did what I wanted. Anything to make a little tiny change... then another step and another.
No matter how absurd or guiltily the Sins felt, I did them anyways... under control. I chose to do them... not my addictions.
If at that moment I wanted to devour a pint of Ben and Jerry's... so be it... guilt free.
After two days of allowing myself to do whatever, whenever, I started to feel better. Feeling better made me actually WANT to do the things I so dreaded to do before.
I was able to release the desires that I denied myself of.
Once satisfied.... Then came the Joy.
Over the following year, I backslid a lot. But I just said, "Tommorrow is another day."
And it always was.
And today, Justice has been served... my hard work is finally paying off.
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Tuesday, September 6th Reading
Present: Queen of Cups
Loving, Intuitive, Spiritual, and Psychic, this queen is linked to everything through her heart.
I am just in Love with Everything : )
Problem: The Hanged Man
I have to say, I havent gotten this guy in a looooong time.
I have just recently experienced a wake up call, and along with that realization, I have gained a new perspective on things.
Above: Ten of Swords
An idea has finally been put to rest.
Below: Strength
Ahhhh... somehow I knew that discussing the cards in my last blog one would pop up here somewhere.
Fortitude, Endurance, Inner Strength, Persistence, Embracing all that is primal and "Evil" and meeting it with honest care and cooperation.
Past: Five of Wands
The struggle with new ideas and how to fit them in their proper order.
Future: Ten of Pentacles
My world is going to be filled with happiness. The gift of prosperity, the gift of Love and relationships, the gift of growing old, luxury, wealth, and fulfillment.
Affecting Me: Ace of Swords
A new way of thinking is crystal clear.
External Influences: The World
It is complete. I have struggled with ideas, strained my brain and stretched my consciousness, but I have completed this cycle.
Hopes and Fears: Eight of Swords
This woman is bound and blind. Her seemingly helplessness is simply not so. At any moment she could release herself.
Do I have it takes to remove this blockage?
Final Outcome: Empress
The mother of the Earth. The Energy to which all things grow and prosper. Fruitation. Reproduction and Evolution.
Enjoying all that is... Enjoying the cycle of nature and the wisdom beneath the functions.
She is the Power behind all things physical. She is the gatekeeper to life and death on the physical level.
She is everything in nature... from the beautiful trees to the decay of a deer carcass.
Sometimes, the Empress is not pretty... but she is always necessary. You can indulge in her fruits and sow great wealth, but you can also experience survival.
Everyone knows survival mode. It is driven by Fear. A drive to survive and a fear of death.
That is the Dark side of Empress.
The Light side, however, is abundant and luxurious. Bountiful and full filling.
I choose the Light side.
Loving, Intuitive, Spiritual, and Psychic, this queen is linked to everything through her heart.
I am just in Love with Everything : )
Problem: The Hanged Man
I have to say, I havent gotten this guy in a looooong time.
I have just recently experienced a wake up call, and along with that realization, I have gained a new perspective on things.
Above: Ten of Swords
An idea has finally been put to rest.
Below: Strength
Ahhhh... somehow I knew that discussing the cards in my last blog one would pop up here somewhere.
Fortitude, Endurance, Inner Strength, Persistence, Embracing all that is primal and "Evil" and meeting it with honest care and cooperation.
Past: Five of Wands
The struggle with new ideas and how to fit them in their proper order.
Future: Ten of Pentacles
My world is going to be filled with happiness. The gift of prosperity, the gift of Love and relationships, the gift of growing old, luxury, wealth, and fulfillment.
Affecting Me: Ace of Swords
A new way of thinking is crystal clear.
External Influences: The World
It is complete. I have struggled with ideas, strained my brain and stretched my consciousness, but I have completed this cycle.
Hopes and Fears: Eight of Swords
This woman is bound and blind. Her seemingly helplessness is simply not so. At any moment she could release herself.
Do I have it takes to remove this blockage?
Final Outcome: Empress
The mother of the Earth. The Energy to which all things grow and prosper. Fruitation. Reproduction and Evolution.
Enjoying all that is... Enjoying the cycle of nature and the wisdom beneath the functions.
She is the Power behind all things physical. She is the gatekeeper to life and death on the physical level.
She is everything in nature... from the beautiful trees to the decay of a deer carcass.
Sometimes, the Empress is not pretty... but she is always necessary. You can indulge in her fruits and sow great wealth, but you can also experience survival.
Everyone knows survival mode. It is driven by Fear. A drive to survive and a fear of death.
That is the Dark side of Empress.
The Light side, however, is abundant and luxurious. Bountiful and full filling.
I choose the Light side.
The DEVIL, STRENGTH, and JUDGEMENT
This card is always so misunderstood. I had to draw it in my spreads for over a month to start to really understand the depth of it.
Yes the Devil is about enslavement. It is about all of our external addictions. The things we draw power from the is outside of ourselves.
The Devil could represent danger, Evil, and all those things that terrify us at night. It is our subconscious given into imagination...
But the Devil also means everything that is considered forbidden. It was the serpent that tempted Eve in the garden. It is anything that tempts us, controls us, all things that we allow to take hold of our light.
As with life, there is duality, there are bad sides... and also good sides.
It is to create BALANCE.
The good sides of the Devil are things like luxury, passion, decadence, indulgement.
Indulgement alone is a good example. To indulge after a long sacrifice can be considered a reward. To indulge and rob yourself of your balance is bad.
Most religions say to avoid all these wonderfully sinnful avenues. Sex. Sex is always the powerful force that has the ability to enliven and enlighten or it could be a tool for robbing you of your power.
All I have to say about how to control the energy of the Devil, is to have the inner strength to be able to control temptation... even partake with control.
It isnt until be LOSE CONTROL that the Devil is allowed to run rampid amongst our lives.
This is the energy of the "Strength" card. The inner power to be able to control yourself when faced with temptation. If the temptation wins, that is when we become enslaved to it. We literally relinquish control of ourselves to this external power of the Devil.
We use our experience, knowledge, and Judgement in order to be able to recognize when we are giving our power away.
We do not simple AVOID these scary addictive thoughts and behaviors out of our own fear...
We simply build up our inner barrier around ourselves with Confidence, Knowledge, Strength, and good Judgement.
Nothing will ever rob me of my Power ever again.
Not Money, Not Sex, Not cigarettes, not even foul relationships that I allow myself to get addicted to.
But I will be in that world but not of that world. I am going to make love, smoke cigarettes, drink coffee and energy drinks, smoke pot, swear like a truck driver and say, do, and be whatever the hell I want.
I can do these things because I remain in control. I am not enslaved to these things. I can have a cigarette, enjoy it and not become addicted. I can have four drinks one night and get drunk with some friends and not lose control of myself.
I can have Sex and not try to fill a void of feeling unloved.
It all goes and is okay until that point where you lose control. When it robs your personal power.
That moment of forgetting that you were always in control and are now just being deceived.
You forgot that the puppet show has strings.
I am not downplaying the abilities of the Devil... many many unimaginably horrid things have been done under the influence of the Devil... I have my own experiences with the omniscient "him".
Do as you wish, let it harm none.
The Devil card is the hardest energy to understand... but once you understand, you have control.
Nothing will ever scare you again.
I like to think that the Darkness is not feared, but the Forgetting.
Forgetting your Power while in the Dark.
Wake up in a dream, you live. Fall in a dream, you die.
You can go into the Dark and fear NOTHING. As long as you remember... you make the choices using your best Judgement.
Playing with the Devil card is always risky business... but the juice will ALWAYS be worth the squeeze.
Behind all that Fear, is great Peace.
There is nothing to fear but Fear itself.
Takes a person a lot of Courage, Strength, and Fortitude to take on the Devil....
The Strength card tells us that we do not tackle the Devil externally, but internally. The woman stand and gently opens the lions jaw. She uses her inner force to make the lion cooperate with her...
All those primal, low level urges and temptations are controlled by the higher self which is the woman. Feminine energy of lovingly accepting that which is fierce and scary openly and honestly.
That is Courage. To be open and honest in the midst of being afraid.
Judgement. The day of reckoning. Enlightenment. Wake up call. An awakening.
That "Ding" stage of connections. The Ah-Ha moment.
That moment when we get it. The collection of knowlege has just been organized and labeled and filed in the right order to make sense of things.
It is one thing to connect some dots and choose to remain enslaved by things... it is a whole nother ball game when the dots connect and understanding brings forgiveness.
With that forgiveness, it is as if it never even happened.
The Devil goes back from which it came.
Yes the Devil is about enslavement. It is about all of our external addictions. The things we draw power from the is outside of ourselves.
The Devil could represent danger, Evil, and all those things that terrify us at night. It is our subconscious given into imagination...
But the Devil also means everything that is considered forbidden. It was the serpent that tempted Eve in the garden. It is anything that tempts us, controls us, all things that we allow to take hold of our light.
As with life, there is duality, there are bad sides... and also good sides.
It is to create BALANCE.
The good sides of the Devil are things like luxury, passion, decadence, indulgement.
Indulgement alone is a good example. To indulge after a long sacrifice can be considered a reward. To indulge and rob yourself of your balance is bad.
Most religions say to avoid all these wonderfully sinnful avenues. Sex. Sex is always the powerful force that has the ability to enliven and enlighten or it could be a tool for robbing you of your power.
All I have to say about how to control the energy of the Devil, is to have the inner strength to be able to control temptation... even partake with control.
It isnt until be LOSE CONTROL that the Devil is allowed to run rampid amongst our lives.
This is the energy of the "Strength" card. The inner power to be able to control yourself when faced with temptation. If the temptation wins, that is when we become enslaved to it. We literally relinquish control of ourselves to this external power of the Devil.
We use our experience, knowledge, and Judgement in order to be able to recognize when we are giving our power away.
We do not simple AVOID these scary addictive thoughts and behaviors out of our own fear...
We simply build up our inner barrier around ourselves with Confidence, Knowledge, Strength, and good Judgement.
Nothing will ever rob me of my Power ever again.
Not Money, Not Sex, Not cigarettes, not even foul relationships that I allow myself to get addicted to.
But I will be in that world but not of that world. I am going to make love, smoke cigarettes, drink coffee and energy drinks, smoke pot, swear like a truck driver and say, do, and be whatever the hell I want.
I can do these things because I remain in control. I am not enslaved to these things. I can have a cigarette, enjoy it and not become addicted. I can have four drinks one night and get drunk with some friends and not lose control of myself.
I can have Sex and not try to fill a void of feeling unloved.
It all goes and is okay until that point where you lose control. When it robs your personal power.
That moment of forgetting that you were always in control and are now just being deceived.
You forgot that the puppet show has strings.
I am not downplaying the abilities of the Devil... many many unimaginably horrid things have been done under the influence of the Devil... I have my own experiences with the omniscient "him".
Do as you wish, let it harm none.
The Devil card is the hardest energy to understand... but once you understand, you have control.
Nothing will ever scare you again.
I like to think that the Darkness is not feared, but the Forgetting.
Forgetting your Power while in the Dark.
Wake up in a dream, you live. Fall in a dream, you die.
You can go into the Dark and fear NOTHING. As long as you remember... you make the choices using your best Judgement.
Playing with the Devil card is always risky business... but the juice will ALWAYS be worth the squeeze.
Behind all that Fear, is great Peace.
There is nothing to fear but Fear itself.
Takes a person a lot of Courage, Strength, and Fortitude to take on the Devil....
The Strength card tells us that we do not tackle the Devil externally, but internally. The woman stand and gently opens the lions jaw. She uses her inner force to make the lion cooperate with her...
All those primal, low level urges and temptations are controlled by the higher self which is the woman. Feminine energy of lovingly accepting that which is fierce and scary openly and honestly.
That is Courage. To be open and honest in the midst of being afraid.
Judgement. The day of reckoning. Enlightenment. Wake up call. An awakening.
That "Ding" stage of connections. The Ah-Ha moment.
That moment when we get it. The collection of knowlege has just been organized and labeled and filed in the right order to make sense of things.
It is one thing to connect some dots and choose to remain enslaved by things... it is a whole nother ball game when the dots connect and understanding brings forgiveness.
With that forgiveness, it is as if it never even happened.
The Devil goes back from which it came.
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Money Money Money
I am just so sick of it. Money, however, is relentless. That is one big Demon if you ask me. Our world puts so much energy into Money.
Sadly, more negative energy is put towards it than positive energy. On a global and individual level.
I am relentless at removing my negative thoughts and feelings about money and putting more positive.
All our payments on things we owe everywhere are looming their ugly heads at me and my family. My husband has to work his butt off for half of what we deserve. Today, I had to buy groceries to last us until we get paid next friday. I took a stand about money in one of my last posts.... since then, Money has decided it will not go away that easily. It has too much power over me... my fear of it sustains it's life.
One thing after another after another. I opened up my medical bills from having my last baby. A big hit. The fear swelled within me. I started getting nervous and scared. My longing and perseverance had seemed fruitless.
Had I given into it, all my work up to that point would have been done in vain.
I drew a spread:
Present: The Moon
All those dark, scary things that go bump in the night. The unconscious, unlimited space where anything goes. In the back of our mind, in our imaginations we will conjure up anything and everything. Wondrous things and frightening things.
It is the darkness in which things come from. Subconsciously, there it sits lurking in the dark.
Problem: Ten of Swords
Pinned by my despair. Tortured to death by by my thoughts to the point of exhaustion. Rock Bottom.
Above: Five of Pentacles
Helplessness. Poverty. Begging. This card says it all. Crippled and in pain I desperately seek safety and security.
Below: King of Wands (Reversed)
The king is all of the energy of the suit of wands, focused outward. I am not filled with Spirit. I am not thinking lightly and creatively. I am not projecting into my world inspiration, life, love, boldness, Fire, daring. charisma and light.
Definition of Charisma
Past: Two of Wands
I held the world in my hands.... I started to become original. Having my personnal power, I could be bold and take risks.
Future: Ace of Swords (Reversed)
I have haulted my new way of thinking about Money. The demons that lurked in my subconscious has gotten to the better of me. My rush I felt when I denounced Money has been weakened.
Affecting Me: Ten of Cups (Reversed)
This is all I want. A happy grateful family. To be full of Grace. To look in awe at my accomplishments with Joy and Gratitude.
External Influences: Ace of Pentacles
A new way of living is around me. A new reality trying to get in.
Hopes and Fears: The Fool (Reversed)
I want a change, I want a new reality, but I am afraid to take that leap of Faith.
Final Outcome: Nine of Swords (Reversed)
I am allowing this to win... Despair. Anguish. What keeps us up at night. Worry.
See what I have done to myself? I allowed Money to go Boo again.
Amazing how much it shows its ugliness in our lives the minute we start to feel good about Money.
Thank you Tarot for always being so honest with me and in turn, allowing me to be honest with myself.
Nice try Money, but I put no more Fear to you. You tried and failed, NOW LEAVE.
I gave my neighbor some of the juice boxes on sale today from the store. My daughter is always over there and she is always given her some kind of goodies. I decided this because everytime I do what is right, I laugh in the face of Money. To be down to my last hundred dollars and then give some away. This proves that Money isnt the boss of me. Money will NEVER get my light again.... no matter how scary it makes its presence in my life.
Nice try... you almost got me.
Now I want to do another spread:
Present: Nine of Cups
Aww. Look at him how he sits there so smug. He is just sooo proud of himself.
That's how I feel. Accomplished... I overcame.
Problem: Page of Pentacles
A seed has been planted. This reality much be nurtured in order for it to take root in my life.
Above: Knight of Wands (Reversed)
I have commenced taking action. I have used my will to go our and reap my success.
Below: Queen of Wands
I am using the feminine aspect of the suit of wands with an inward focus. I am giving my seed that I planted Spirit to grow within me.
She is self-assured, cheerful, energetic and attractive... she has appeal. She is vibrant and glowing.
Past: Three of Wands (Reversed)
I have sent out my energy and now waiting for it to return to me.
Future: King of Swords
The masculine energy of the suit of swords focused outward.
I am the master of reason and logic.
Affecting Me: The Moon (Reversed)
Screw you all those imaginary boogy men in my subconscious. You cant scare me.
External Influences: Two of Wands
I am the master of my own world. The world bends to my free will.
Hopes and Fears: Page of Wands
Although little, the seed has been planted and must be nurtured by my Spirit to let it grow.
This Page wields his idea... fascinated... thinking of how to use it.
I will use my imagination for the good things I want... not just feed my fears of what I dont want.
Final Outcome: Judgement
WAKE UP CALL... wake up to a higher level of thinking. I will use my keen Judgement on what I will believe and what I will give my power to.
I am grateful for the Money we had to buy groceries. I am grateful that despite the Fear, we are able to pay our bills when it is time to do so.
I am grateful for the Money boogey men that have crawled from the darkness of my mind to scare me. It was a great challenge to overcome. I never thought how strong I could be.
Sadly, more negative energy is put towards it than positive energy. On a global and individual level.
I am relentless at removing my negative thoughts and feelings about money and putting more positive.
All our payments on things we owe everywhere are looming their ugly heads at me and my family. My husband has to work his butt off for half of what we deserve. Today, I had to buy groceries to last us until we get paid next friday. I took a stand about money in one of my last posts.... since then, Money has decided it will not go away that easily. It has too much power over me... my fear of it sustains it's life.
One thing after another after another. I opened up my medical bills from having my last baby. A big hit. The fear swelled within me. I started getting nervous and scared. My longing and perseverance had seemed fruitless.
Had I given into it, all my work up to that point would have been done in vain.
I drew a spread:
Present: The Moon
All those dark, scary things that go bump in the night. The unconscious, unlimited space where anything goes. In the back of our mind, in our imaginations we will conjure up anything and everything. Wondrous things and frightening things.
It is the darkness in which things come from. Subconsciously, there it sits lurking in the dark.
Problem: Ten of Swords
Pinned by my despair. Tortured to death by by my thoughts to the point of exhaustion. Rock Bottom.
Above: Five of Pentacles
Helplessness. Poverty. Begging. This card says it all. Crippled and in pain I desperately seek safety and security.
Below: King of Wands (Reversed)
The king is all of the energy of the suit of wands, focused outward. I am not filled with Spirit. I am not thinking lightly and creatively. I am not projecting into my world inspiration, life, love, boldness, Fire, daring. charisma and light.
Definition of Charisma
Past: Two of Wands
I held the world in my hands.... I started to become original. Having my personnal power, I could be bold and take risks.
Future: Ace of Swords (Reversed)
I have haulted my new way of thinking about Money. The demons that lurked in my subconscious has gotten to the better of me. My rush I felt when I denounced Money has been weakened.
Affecting Me: Ten of Cups (Reversed)
This is all I want. A happy grateful family. To be full of Grace. To look in awe at my accomplishments with Joy and Gratitude.
External Influences: Ace of Pentacles
A new way of living is around me. A new reality trying to get in.
Hopes and Fears: The Fool (Reversed)
I want a change, I want a new reality, but I am afraid to take that leap of Faith.
Final Outcome: Nine of Swords (Reversed)
I am allowing this to win... Despair. Anguish. What keeps us up at night. Worry.
See what I have done to myself? I allowed Money to go Boo again.
Amazing how much it shows its ugliness in our lives the minute we start to feel good about Money.
Thank you Tarot for always being so honest with me and in turn, allowing me to be honest with myself.
Nice try Money, but I put no more Fear to you. You tried and failed, NOW LEAVE.
I gave my neighbor some of the juice boxes on sale today from the store. My daughter is always over there and she is always given her some kind of goodies. I decided this because everytime I do what is right, I laugh in the face of Money. To be down to my last hundred dollars and then give some away. This proves that Money isnt the boss of me. Money will NEVER get my light again.... no matter how scary it makes its presence in my life.
Nice try... you almost got me.
Now I want to do another spread:
Present: Nine of Cups
Aww. Look at him how he sits there so smug. He is just sooo proud of himself.
That's how I feel. Accomplished... I overcame.
Problem: Page of Pentacles
A seed has been planted. This reality much be nurtured in order for it to take root in my life.
Above: Knight of Wands (Reversed)
I have commenced taking action. I have used my will to go our and reap my success.
Below: Queen of Wands
I am using the feminine aspect of the suit of wands with an inward focus. I am giving my seed that I planted Spirit to grow within me.
She is self-assured, cheerful, energetic and attractive... she has appeal. She is vibrant and glowing.
Past: Three of Wands (Reversed)
I have sent out my energy and now waiting for it to return to me.
Future: King of Swords
The masculine energy of the suit of swords focused outward.
I am the master of reason and logic.
Affecting Me: The Moon (Reversed)
Screw you all those imaginary boogy men in my subconscious. You cant scare me.
External Influences: Two of Wands
I am the master of my own world. The world bends to my free will.
Hopes and Fears: Page of Wands
Although little, the seed has been planted and must be nurtured by my Spirit to let it grow.
This Page wields his idea... fascinated... thinking of how to use it.
I will use my imagination for the good things I want... not just feed my fears of what I dont want.
Final Outcome: Judgement
WAKE UP CALL... wake up to a higher level of thinking. I will use my keen Judgement on what I will believe and what I will give my power to.
I am grateful for the Money we had to buy groceries. I am grateful that despite the Fear, we are able to pay our bills when it is time to do so.
I am grateful for the Money boogey men that have crawled from the darkness of my mind to scare me. It was a great challenge to overcome. I never thought how strong I could be.
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