Tarot Counselor. I am an Empath and a Visionary. Which is why I am a fortune teller. A psychological doctor of faith... I am a creative madman... Completely absurd and wickedly intelligent. I am the dark maiden who tells dirty jokes and hides your underwear. I am the angel of bullshit. I am the lightening bolt of power.
Thank you Tom. I just love how you always validate everything I process in a week. I got banned from Facebook again.
This time 30 days. The block will be active for 24 days and 23 hours more.
To be exact.
I put my heart and soul into my page. This time... I did try to have a new level of maturity. A forced vacation. I can handle that. I cleaned my entire house. Went through the kid's clothes and toys and made everything spotless. That was day two. I am just a creative person. I NEED to express and create.
Regardless of how well I am handling this... I have had two sleepless nights in a row. I try to resist when the waves of sadness come over me and my heart aches. I can feel the anger. This is the anger I have felt my entire life. People always trying to shove me in a box. I am an Aquarius. I am eclectic... There really isn't anything too taboo for me. I forget the rest of the World is gripped in fear.
I have been working with this guy from Virginia. He had sent me an email last week titled, "Please Help".
So I did.
I have been working with him since everyday. I have been making him walk and then text me when he is done for card work.
He said to me yesterday, "Things are changing."
Yes. Yes they are.
When life throws you lemons... make lemonade right? So I can't inspire my over 7,000 fans on my page on a daily basis... but I am making a difference in one man's life. That is something to be happy about.
I have three planets in Scorpio... and I am a fixed Aquarius... with another three planets in Capricorn. I take my work VERY VERY seriously and to heart. It is who I am.
Thanks Tom for giving me comfort. As you always do. I just have to let it go. And if it is meant to be... it will find me. Xx
Last week I was talking to my friend who lives in Alaska. He is an electrician and was here for a visit. His company sends him to islands off Alaska to install wiring into hospitals so they all can link to the grid. He told he some horrific stories that are now burned into my psyche.
He said it is humbling and makes you be of service to humanity. I suppose people like us are more acclimated to Death than most. I used to be a floral designer and walked into the wrong door delivery service flowers and was face to face with a man cleaning off a severed head.
When things become real... they are remembered as surreal.
His best friend used to work at a crematory. He told us a story of how they have to monitor the process by watching through a peep hole. Vividly he describes that everyone at one point heats up until the staples burst in the chest and a bouquet of intestines explode into the air in a grand finale.
I've seen a lot of dead bodies. They didn't seem very real to me. Looking at them. I always wondered how different cultures handled Death. It interested me. Even more so it interested me the people who take these things on as a life style. Intriguing. The unlikely hero.
When I lived in Chicago a friend of mine, my next door neighbor, was slashed to death 50 times in the neck and chest by a crack head who broke in to her house with his friends looking for shit to steal and pawn. When I got the phone call I ran through the trees to her house. Her mom was sitting in the back of a police car. I sat next to her and she looked into my eyes and cried, "She's gone."
It was horrific having found her daughter in a bloody pool. Everyone walked around as if in a trance. I remember a guy with a camera asking questions in our face and me and Tony pushed him away. Both him and I almost killed him. He was just doing his job. As was the policeman. The church even volunteered to clean up the mess in the house. Somebody has to do it. Some... Body.
It is easy to live in a dream world... in our heads. Cut off from life on Earth. But what a waste. Why did you bother to get a body if you weren't going to use it. To love it. To pleasure it. And were in history did it all go wrong? When we decided to hate ourselves. Life is too short for that crap.
Mortality. You can't help but wonder.
I am an explorer. I loved travelling around to different sites to deliver flowers. Every time I walked into a new job site I would scope it out. In the kitchen behind the wedding, the doors in the mortuary. Flowers took me on quite the wild ride. It was life. In the moment. In all its parts. Everyone working together to make life as we know it comfy cozy. There are no little parts, only small people.
We were the people behind the scenes. The people that made it all work.
It is a delicate balance. A ballet. I use to be an insurance agent. The owner of the funeral home down the street would come in and only talk in whispers. Every service he performed was in a silent reverence. I could never understand a word he said. But I would watch him speak and think of what goes on beneath his home. Where the bodies were kept. I always wondered why we display people's bodies. Does making it more real make it easier to grieve? Does it shock life into us? Or does it simply scare us?
I get more and more emails everyday people all over the world asking me to do readings for them. Some offer to pay... most don't. I don't want to just be another Tarot reader. Why help one at a time when one little people make big fires? I guess I am holding out for the Big Fish.
I am 29. I don't feel 29. I don't feel any physically different from when I was 21. Honestly.
Everyone is at the tip of their toes. What is it? It is breaking dawn. The point is... we are looking forward. With everything that we've got. Looking for ourselves on a deep profound level. Saying no to what is not and making room for the best that is yet to come.
“Strange memories on this nervous night in Las Vegas. Five years later? Six? It seems like a lifetime, or at least a Main Era—the kind of peak that never comes again. San Francisco in the middle sixties was a very special time and place to be a part of. Maybe it meant something. Maybe not, in the long run . . . but no explanation, no mix of words or music or memories can touch that sense of knowing that you were there and alive in that corner of time and the world. Whatever it meant. . . .
History is hard to know, because of all the hired bullshit, but even without being sure of “history” it seems entirely reasonable to think that every now and then the energy of a whole generation comes to a head in a long fine flash, for reasons that nobody really understands at the time—and which never explain, in retrospect, what actually happened.
My central memory of that time seems to hang on one or five or maybe forty nights—or very early mornings—when I left the Fillmore half-crazy and, instead of going home, aimed the big 650 Lightning across the Bay Bridge at a hundred miles an hour wearing L. L. Bean shorts and a Butte sheepherder's jacket . . . booming through the Treasure Island tunnel at the lights of Oakland and Berkeley and Richmond, not quite sure which turn-off to take when I got to the other end (always stalling at the toll-gate, too twisted to find neutral while I fumbled for change) . . . but being absolutely certain that no matter which way I went I would come to a place where people were just as high and wild as I was: No doubt at all about that. . . .
There was madness in any direction, at any hour. If not across the Bay, then up the Golden Gate or down 101 to Los Altos or La Honda. . . . You could strike sparks anywhere. There was a fantastic universal sense that whatever we were doing was right, that we were winning. . . .
And that, I think, was the handle—that sense of inevitable victory over the forces of Old and Evil. Not in any mean or military sense; we didn’t need that. Our energy would simply prevail. There was no point in fighting—on our side or theirs. We had all the momentum; we were riding the crest of a high and beautiful wave. . . .
So now, less than five years later, you can go up on a steep hill in Las Vegas and look West, and with the right kind of eyes you can almost see the high-water mark—that place where the wave finally broke and rolled back.”
So the question is... What do you want to do with your precious life?
Travel and Teach.
I am so grateful for this time I have spend studying at home raising my kids. But I have put myself into something I love that is for myself. As they grow, they can reap the benefits of my hard work. And hopefully learn to do the same for themselves. I might only have this one life to be Mandy Flint. But I am going to rock the shit out of it and go out in a flame of glory.
So I just got my new deck. I was so happy to go to the mail today. I just got my second edition to the Book of Shadows Tarot. AND I AM IN FUCKING LOVE!!!!!
You guys. *Gasp* You have no idea. This deck is so easy to read it is retarded. And EXACTLY what I needed right now.
The As Above deck is amazing in itself. It is a unique system by itself. Then when you delve into this one it makes everything real.
Which is EXACTLY where I am at RIGHT NOW. I suppose we all are. Well anyone that resonates with my page that is.
A lot of you know that my favorite deck is the Robert Hanson. I love the Magic of that deck. The simplicity and childlike in color and character.
As you can see I also receive my new Andara. Merlin. Which makes me think of the Seven of Cups in that deck. The Magician hovers over all of possibility and envisions it from the array of goodies the cosmos has to offer. Some people say it is delusional. Confusing. And overwhelming. Those people lack vision.
I am a visionary. A gift honed through practice to be skilled in my craft. A craft that is highly under appreciated. Perhaps that is why I feel that way sometimes. Like Tarot.. our power is not taken very seriously. Some people still are under the spelled of black magic cast by religion. Others out of shear ignorance. Some out of denial. I wonder if Catholic Priests had empty confessional booths. I mean who really wants to confess their sins anyways?
No one likes to admit their faults. Our pride stands in the way. Our Ego just can't take the hard Truth... even if it keeps us small.
I get it. I get it. I guess I am not mad any longer. My desire to save everyone has passed. Instead it has changed into a loving appreciation for having such an amazing gift. It has not always been easy. But I embrace challenges. I love to change. Deep inside I know I want to see what I am really made of. That Desire... is what drives me.
I see this Desire in the first card I drew. The Ace of Wands. Lighting a Fire. The Lovers. In the picture it shows a couple looking at the house of their dreams for sale. My husband and I have spent a lot of time lately figuring out what it is we want for our lives.
“Illusion is the first of all pleasures.” — Voltaire
I just love this Ten of Wands. A woman opens the door to her home after a long nights work. My last spread work and what Tom talked about makes sense. It is just so much. But it feels good. Shit has been all over the place. Changes fast. Not so much in our lives... but within ourselves and so therefore how our world works.
The Empress. It's funny I was just telling my husband I wanted a garden for the kids. Logan is a Taurus Moon baby and Darby is a Aries/Taurus cusp. I think they will really dig it. Nuck nuck.
I am learning how to be a good mom. I think I was always a good mom... I just had to get over the psycho-ness of my own mother. I'm sure if anyone read this that knew her would act like I am crazy. "But she is sooo nice". Yeah. I suppose that is what you would see. I suppose that is why she didn't care for me that much. I was painful for her in many ways I don't think I will ever understand. But at this point, as Tom says, I don't really care. I am over it. I am a great mom and that is all that matters.
I love my kids fiercely.
I told my hubby today, "They won't look back on these days and think about all the things they DIDN'T have. Right now all they will do is look back and remember being happy." That is what is important. And if we keep working as hard as we do... when they are old enough that things start to matter... we will have everything they will need and more.
That's my dream.
This Six of Cups. I feel that looking at this image any day soon than TODAY it would have been painful for me. Out of the 78 cards of the Tarot I have always struggled with this card. The Six of Cups. I suppose because it is about childhood innocence, childhood, love, present moments, family connection. Our family was so so so incredibly broken. But it looked shiny and nice on the outside. Never judge a book by its cover. You don't know anyone until you go into their home... and then into their experience. I grew up in a lie. Which is why it was so hard for me to decipher between what was real and what wasn't real. On top of that is was tense. Which caused me to have what they call "AdHd." My Third Eye, Crown, and my Heart Chakra were wide open. The rest were all closed. So I got called a dreamer... spacey. I didn't understand Math... so I was called dumb. Living in a world of lies with the ability to see the Truth was hurtful. People will protect those lies. Even if it means ruining what is sweet and innocent. The people I loved the most were living a lie. It was no wonder that when I got into the real world I could not tell who was lying and who wasn't. Poor kid. You suffer, you learn, you change.
I got my first deck when I was 22. The Winged Spirit Deck. I couldn't read it for shit so I went and got a Rider Waite. I studied these two for 2 years before I bought another deck. I just stopped and thought, "why am I saying this?" then I looked and saw the King of Wands and the one boy said, "Shut up and tell the story"... K fine.
I cannot explain the desire I had to read these cards. It was a deep deep thirst for Truth among all the lies around me. I never had any pre-conceived ideas of Tarot being "bad" before. I just saw it in the "Spirituality" section of the Bookstore. I am a book Whore. I have always been interested in the Occult. To me... it seemed more free and creative. Than any of the other stuff.
Little did I know then that it was an invitation by my soul to know itself. Some people say you need to be "gifted" Tarot. Bullcrap. But it does choose you. When you want Truth... when you are ready. There is it. The only thing is... it only gives you what you put into it. Let's just say I have invested a lot in Tarot. But it has actually given me the gift of knowing myself in all my parts. And in knowing myself... I understand the world around me better. And what exactly that relationship means in the grand scheme of things.
I was suppose to record today's readings and upload them to YouTube. But I am going to wait until my hubby gets his GoPro cam cause THAT would be awesome AND easy to record my spread work. So today I am typing it out.
It kills me to see the Queen of Swords card. If Barbara Moore reads this I hope she finds that humorous as well. I love this. The Teacher. *Sigh* finally. Somebody gets it.
The Wheel of Fortune. I know the Wheel always suggests of good luck. A huge piece of me is scared to get excited because I have been let down so so so many times. But then I hear Tom's voice. "Choose to love again." and then Pink lyrics.
We aren't broken. Just bent. It is that twisted love I explained in my last spread work. Hurt divides us... but love re-unites us. That's the game. That's the ride. My family always teased me because when I was little I wanted to change my name to Crystal Rose. My name is Amanda... which I HATED. I demanded to be called Mandy. Jordan Hoggard said, "It means worthy of love." What's in a name anyways right? When we can be so many things.
The next two cards got me so excited. That is me. That is me teaching right there. There I am. I would OWN that. I will OWN that. Now that Merlin has chosen me I know he is here to help me get there. The woman who I bought it from said to let her know when I get it... but she will be out of town doing a retreat. Tarot is coming to light in a big big way now. As everyone is seeing the lies more clearly and are all desperately seeking the Truth. I don't want to read for them. I want to teach them how to read for themselves. To find the answers within. Everyone always says that. But it is so hard to understand the concept.... but when looking in to the cards it makes it so easy to look in the mirror. Believe me... our souls know what we need to see... what we need to hear...
The Seven of Swords. To which I call the Divided Mind... mental compartmentalization. We just need to get all our files in the right places...
The girl looks so ready to crack open those books. She is ready to get to work.
The Hiero-Hyerophant? Weird. Now I have to get the booklet. Hmmm spelled right in the Booklet. Either I am reading too much into it or someone really fucked up... lol. "Making knowledge accessible and understandable to others". Dude you have no idea. This is so true. I really am a master of my Craft.
The Seven of Cups. Again. Fuckin Aye. The Student, The Doctor, The Voice, Justice, The Traveler... Oh the places you will go. I swear the battle is all about believing we deserve what we want.
I have always been ridiculed as being a dreamer. Ostracized, hunted, and damn near killed. And I am still standing here saying FUCK THE FREE WORLD.
The Six of Pentacles. You have to give... to get. To have to try. You have to work. To have to want it. No one can give you drive. That comes from you.
This last card makes me want to cry. That is me and my husband. I always told him... even from our first official "date" that I wanted to eat at a restaurant like Gordon Ramsey where they serve you tons of big plates with small food on it. Dress all fancy and be served in fine dining. The crystals dangle above them. The Magic comes from her. I know a part of him is intimidated by my power. I get that. But I know he loves me. He believes in me. I know that. And we choose each other over and over again. It is the love that we have that made me understand what love really is. That it is messy... and hard... but worth it. That when love is your foundation and you keep fighting for it... it will prevail.
What a rough couple of weeks huh hunny? Fighting off the Devil... growing in leaps and bounds. He says to me, "We are just two fucked up people who found each other." Fucked up in all the same places. Hence why we were attracted to each other. This was on a very grand scale as well. I met him when I lived in San Diego... he was from Wyoming... I from Chicago. We didn't meet again until years later. He showed up at my door. Literally. Not for me... well at least we didn't know it at the time ;)
Life finds a way....
My passion is to teach people how to help themselves. How to figure out what it is they want... and show them how to get it. I get so annoyed when people say, "Like the Secret"? No... no. Not like the Secret. This isn't blind faith... this is a deep understanding of our own nature and the relationship we have to the Cosmos.
Damn Merlin. You are so good.
I look at the Chariot card. There I am... in the Driver's seat. My hubby in the passenger seat. He is ready to go on this ride with me. Our three kids in the back. You get what you give.
Moonlight both reveals and conceals. She speaks in dreams of symbolic language. Random events and patterns are falling into place. Things flow easily. Trust the Process.
In my physical environment I am flowing comfortably on the wave... The Wheel spins... We make our own Luck by working on our wholeness.
I am enjoying my abundance. The Ten of Pentacles. I love my house <3 The Queen of Cups... filled with love and ready to share.
The Eight of Pentacles shows that I am not shy to work. I have my to do list as follows:
Not the type of work I prefer... but work that needs to be done none the less. Taking a break from the Page of Pentacles and letting that simmer a bit to take care of the house.
You could say I am still in my state of suspension in the Hanged Man... trying to figure out this new world I am in. My guides have been pressing me hard core to produce. See the Green Fairy in the background checking out the work of the student. He stands there and stares at me while I bust my ass working. I wonder what his opinion is of me?
I asked the deck and pulled the Tower. He thinks I am a lose cannon as much as everyone else... but he is pleased that I act willingly on demand. The Nine of Cups shows that there has been some wonderful rewards to the work and I have been very happy.
The Ten of Swords, Ten of Pentacles, and the Queen of Wands show that Doing is so much more rewarding than thinking and worrying... and dreaming for that matter.
The Mother Empress blesses my en devours.
The Eight of Pentacles is my craft... and although I have some masculine of scrubbing floors... I have my feminine outlet of work through the Tarot.
The Devil and the Hierophant. I work very very hard to fight the battle against ignorance.
There is no Darkness... only Ignorance ~ William Shakespeare
I am pretty focused on this as my main mission statement. I guess I am gifted this craft of reading cards for a reason... to show people that it is nothing to be afraid of. Well... only of themselves...
The King of Wands and the Ten of Wands is grounded into reality with the Four of Wands. The Chariot.
The Ten of Wands from the Mary-El Tarot looks a lot like the Chariot in imagery:
"Wheels within Wheels. The Ten of Wands is the Wheel of Fire! Creative and destructive... this is the courageous heart of the lion in the center."
This card just reinforces the Wheel of Fortunes at the bottom. I love the Judgement card from the Fey Tarot... the girl is exhausted and almost falling asleep working as the invisible faeries urge her to keep working.
The drive is killing me... but they just won't let up... no pain... no gain.
The Ace of Cups... this is what I am heading for. The Holy Grail. The entire realm of Water. Emotions. There is so much power in emotions. Feelings can be felt. Literally.
Two Five of Wands sandwich the center of the reading. To the left is the conflict. Competition. Strife. To the Right we transform this card to working together. Teamwork.
For now... I am going to lay low and clean my house. Nine of Pentacles. Burn some sage and open the windows and get the air flowing.
The Six of Swords... healing... moving on.
The Page of Swords offers me advice... Find your innocence and take a break to enjoy your blessings.
Two Seven of Pentacles comes up in the outcome. In the one card the gnome puffs his pipe as he sits on the roots of his tree. In the other card the woman returns home with her bags full of goodies.
This is awesome. I am very happy. The Chariot and the Ten of Cups. I feel so blessed. To have such an amazing career. Fun and inspiring. And then have my wonderful home and family to boot.
I did it. My life is perfect. Co-created with the Divine. Thank you for never giving up on me. You relentless illusion you.
The Seven of Wands and the Six of Wands. This Six of Wands is my favorite card in the whole wide world. I feel good. Really good. I feel like I could conquer the world today. But at the same time I am battling feeling defensive and attacked. I have been surrounded by assholes my entire life. I am just waiting to find my people. I am the King of Swords. Very focused. The Ace of Swords comes up with the King of Cups. My recent grip on my emotional realm has served me well and I am in total mental control.
And then the damn Two of Swords comes up. It just never ends... one victory won and another battle is right over the next hill. Good thing I took time out to rest and heal. Otherwise I might not be up for the challenge today. But I feel great.
The Moon and the King of Wands. I suppose the cards are warning me not to feel as if I need to take control and make action... but to just relax into the now and allow whatever wants to emerge from my subconscious to do so. Whether it is good or bad it is coming... whether it is a challenge or a reward it never ends. And why should it? I suppose.
The Lovers card. Union. The End of Separation. It is so fun and so exciting. I'm on board. The Four of Pentacles and the King of Cups show that I am still resistant to sharing my feelings with strangers in the world. In fear of being rejected. We reject the creator in fear of being rejected. Hahah. Too funny right?
I had a traumatic upbringing with Christians. They use the Bible like the rule book for life. In the Beginning there was the Word and the Word was God.
I don't believe this. Well not in the way they do. I believe in the power of words... but words are written by people. I think that when people read the words of others that they really connect with... resonate with... it makes them feel like they are not alone. That someone feels the way they do. It is about connection. Why else would we be here on Earth if is wasn't for the need for human connection?
I have a firm grip on my conscious logical and conscious irrational mind. I know the target and I am setting my aim. Using my will to create something. The girl among the butterflies says that when you work really hard at something... and you want it that badly... and you persist and stand your ground against all obstacles you can reach success. There is a moment when preparation meets opportunity and all the elements collapse in your favor. And you beat the odds.
Every time I lay cards down I witness the miracle of life. The magic and science of it all. Some would peg me a Magician Fooling them with my slight of hand... others do not and could accept the enormity of what I do. But that's okay. I am not trying to safe the world anymore. I just want create.
The Six of Cups and the Five of Cups come up. Tarot helps me stop and smell the roses. Tarot helps me see all aspects of my experience clearly. I need to get over the stereotypes and misunderstandings that people have about it.... I need to get over them in order to get rid of them.
The Page of Wands and the Two of Pentacles. The Gypsy dancer wiggles her hips. She seduces you. The Gypsy Archetype is just what this world needs right now. A chance to be open minded Spiritually.
The Hermit and Temperance. I am going to have to reach down deep to pull out more creative stuff to help shape myself, my work, and my life.
The Two of Pentacles comes up again... the Gypsy lady has now turned into a artsy chick looking at herself in the mirror. She is in this space between what she was and what she is becoming. Change is easier when you work towards a new model instead of trying to destroy the old.
That is the Universe's job what it does with the garbage not yours. Just keep moving forward.
When you get real in tune with the processes of nature... they can be quite intense. The Hanged Man shows that I have re-birthed into a new person... a new perspective. A new way of being.
"The Hanged Man trues to possess beauty and truth. Only after he is himself transformed foes he know that you cannot possess them... you must become them."
I'm not looking for Beauty, Love, and Art... I AM Beauty... Love... and Art.
The Magician comes up to give me the Green Light to create.
The Four of Cups: "What do you think of someone who keeps looking for what she already is? Yeah, me too."
I get it okay. I get it.
Three of Pentacles: "A Meeting of the Minds, an entwining of hears, well matched skills... a special magic results from three elements coming together. Great things happen."
AQUARIUS (January 20-February 18) Three of Pentacles: Creativity. Planning. Craftsmanship. Financial opportunity. Professional growth. Profitable hobby. Maintaining goals. Artistic ability. Natural success from talent. Recognition due. Gifted effort. Things come together. Skills. Answering our calling. Niche. Abilities rewarded. Business opportunities. Communicating something powerful. Words make sense. Proving that you mean business. Achievement. Writing flows beautifully. Spiritual growth. Rank improves. Step up to seniority. Climbing the ladder. Power increases. Wise strategy. Crafting the home business. Dependent on self-approval. Designing the perfect setting. Material gain. Getting together with like-minded people. Grounded. Having the know-how to structure a masterpiece. Aware of time.
It’s almost becoming a second skill for you Aquarius, as you continue to separate yourself from complicated attachments and unnecessary situations. With two intense eclipses happening this month, major transitions will be the result, triggered from your house of Home, Security, Friendships, Hopes, and Wishes. Perhaps you’ve discovered a much grander vision of what home is, and you may be ready to explore those options. With Sun, Mercury, Venus, and Mars joining Jupiter in your house of Creativity and Self-Expression, plenty of ideas and tools will be available for you to experiment with – helping you to find a new solution – for a new way. The answer is already inside of your beautiful mind, and you only need to believe it, to figure it all out. Make life happen.
This is exactly where I feel. Even Tom Lescher said, "You have all the ideas Aquarius... but can you make it real?"
Fuck Yes I CAN.
Three of Cups. This is my focus now. I got my house. I got my family. I got everything I need. But I do desire the company of like minded people in my life. It's party time.
The Lovers comes up again. Subconsciously I have it set and therefore it is what my future will hold. The Knight of Cups... keep riding the wave.
Knight of Wands... don't be afraid to follow your Spirit. Your Passions... No regrets.
The Ace of Swords. Focus. Focus. Focus.
Ace of Wands...
I crave something new on a soul level I can feel it. I just need to keep my focus. The Star comes up to remind me of my goal. To shine. To help lead others who resonate to my path. Justice. To help balance where I can. To help... in order to receive. To create abundance in myself and others so we all can enjoy. Because in the end... you reap what you sow.
The Ace of Pentacles. You guys have no idea how big my life is right now. I have cast nets all over this Universe. Change is so beautiful and so welcomed.
The Seven of Wands. Mars in Leo.
"Have the courage to in the face of difficulty. A prior achievement has put you in a competitive position. Take a stand for what you believe in... Valor grows by daring, fear by holding back- Publilius Syrus"
Victory. Persistence. Gain. Career Success.
My dad has a plaque on his wall that says, “Nothing in the world can take the place of persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent. The slogan Press On! has solved and always will solve the problems of the human race.” ― Calvin Coolidge
If you only have one thing... and that is persistence... then you will be just fine. Don't give up.
Ace of Swords comes up over the Queens of Pentacles and Cups. This is your focus now. Teach this.
The Solar Plexus, (Like a dumbass I covered the middle one up) The Third Eye: Seeing, and the Crown Chakra. Having the courage to speak your Truth out loud.
Perspective. Truth. Knowledge. Clarity.
My Snow Angel comes up to say, "Bitch please you know already." I smirk back at her... I know. The girl in the bottom card clings to her apple. The rewards of hanging onto Hope will continue far into the future. Hope is always linked to the Star card. Hope does not have to be blind. Justice does not have to be blind. Let's all take the blind folds off and see.
I suppose the Hierophant and the Fairy of the Divine Hand tell me that I can teach people about Addiction. Divine intervention helps us. "Those moments when someone who loves you points out your addictive tendencies, acknowledge their power, and then disengage and find support for living in clear, bright ways that don't leave you feeling drained, and disenchanted."
I am a pro at addiction. My hero is Dr. Drew. I understand addiction very very well. I can see what makes people die. The tangled mess they get themselves in. Another hero is Chef Ramsey. When you are good at something... You can have the courage to stand up to others who are sick. Whether a divided consciousness... emotional baggage, spiritually deprivation, all these these handicap us when working in the real world. They are so influential to our well being no matter how invisible they may be.
They are real.
But nothing that cannot be fixed.
So instead of sweeping these things under the rug or labeling us "bad" or dragging us to church for an exorcism... why don't we just sit down and talk it out?
Person to person.
This is the mark of the end... and a new beginning.
And I am really excited to get to some serious work. And everyone will benefit from it.
Goodbye April.... Hello May!!!! Last month was quite a doozey for me with the Sun and the Dragonfly Oracle. This month I pulled the Ace of Pentacles and the a Twist in the Tale... something unexpected. A change I did not see coming.
I love surprises. I have a good experience with this card. When my hubby broke his foot we were so scared. Workman's comp was not enough to cover our bills and we were so scared for a couple of days. We tried everything for solutions... we even went to the local public aid to see if we qualified. Which we didn't. Three kids and a husband with a broken foot was so scary. I had pulled this card. Ten minutes later my hubby called me and said workman's comp had taken in consideration all his overtime and was going to compensate for that which was JUST enough to hold us above water.
I trust this card very much. The previous month I have been working on raising my vibration and matching my energy to the life I want. This month... the cards seem to hint that my work will pay off. Looking at the next couple of months with the Knight of Swords (Which is the honorary card for my husband by the way) and then the Nine of Cups, Four of Wands, and so on. It is weird to think that all the changes we have made are going to start paying off.
We are still waiting on hearing from my hubby's job interview... if he gets this job our lives will change drastically. I won't have to worry and stress. The kids will be able to get the things that they deserve and so will we. *Fingers Crossed*
"We can prepare all we like. Practice over and over again... Get to know our territory and understand what is safe and what is not within its boundaries. But no insurance or practice pr prayers could have saved you from this twist of fate. This change is coming from a soul level so remember that it is a great blessing."
If that isn't the Tower card... I don't know what is.
Must be all the Fulgurite I've been working with ;)
I'm not scared of change... in fact I embrace it. I like things fresh. I like things efficient. And I never settle. I'm excited. Bring it on.
Cuprite's appearance in your cards is signaling you to invoke the power of the female aspect of your nature. The answers that you seek lie within your own deepest self.
Make the time to find them by moving inward through meditation and solitude. Open yourself to the mysteries of the universe, and to the void where all potential exists.
The appearance of this ally is signaling a "Moon time", a time of retreat and seclusion, from which you will gain the insight and strength you need to move forward on your journey. It is time to trust the unseen forces that are at work in your life.
By moving within, you encourage your inner self to speak and to share with you the secrets of your hidden path.
Mystically it is used to recall and examine past life experiences. It has been historically said to help heal one's relationship with their father.Cuprite is used to discourage worry, especially those worries which we have little or no control over. It allows one to understand that worry is essentially a waste of energy
Chakras: Earthstar and Root chakra Affirmation: I am the source of creation.
It is very challenging for me to write today's spread for some reason. Well I know why, I really just want to blow off work and just vedge around the house. But I made a commitment to myself and I good to my word. I have mastered my passions and now know that I am suppose to communicate myself. Although... I feel I don't want to at the same time.
So I am just doing it. So I stop worrying about it.
I made a commitment in the Page of Pentacles and I need to show up.
I can't hide under the table like this guy in this Ten of Pentacles. I had such a beautiful night last night. My hubby made a fire and we sat and watched the kids run around with the dog in the yard. It was bliss. A huge part of me wants to stay selfish and just live my Hermit life and forget about everyone else... pretend that it doesn't matter.
But the Truth is I can make a difference. And if I don't even try it goes against everything I believe in. It would be a slap in the face to the Universe for everything I have been gifted.
The strong hand of fate has blew into my life. The Five of Cups is about me trusting in the possibilities of the opportunities I cannot see. I am so small. But I have friends everywhere.
My mind has given way to a new reality with the Ten of Swords and the Ace of Swords. It is like a whole new world. I have a friend who survived a wicked car accident. When she awoke she said that the world looked so different. She exclaimed, "I have been alive for 40 years I know what the color of grass looked liked... and the sky..."
She now sees with new eyes. Did the world really change? Did it change with her? The only thing we can be certain of is she did.
The Four of Cups and the Start point to what I have been thinking about. I've been thinking about the future. A lot. Really trying to figure out what it is I really want. I suppose I could sell myself out as a fortune teller and read for chips the rest of my life. That would suffice. But no I want something bigger.
The Four of Pentacles and the Ten of Pentacles comes up. I don't want to have to settle. I don't care how long it takes. The Knight of Pentacles... with The Sun, Mars, and Venus in Taurus. We will fight for what we love. And Taurus is persistent.
Do I feel like a Fool? Yes... yes I do. But I suppose everyone who has ever done anything worth doing has to stretch outside their comfort zone and be willing to risk looking stupid... and failing... or being wrong. At least we are doing something. At least we are creating.
I really like this Seven of Cups... the dead woman sits beside a pond and gazes at her reflection. What will comes of me now? Now that I have been stripped of all that I am? I suppose now I am so bare... that now I can become anything...
The Five of Wands comes up... Which so happens to be my daily card on my blog here (I peeked). Remember Fives are about love. It is about that Fifth element. After the stability of the Four a fifth element gets thrown in and causes a reaction. Not good not bad... but surprising. It is when life force... vital energy is added.
"Oxygen is simply an earthly element. However, within this earthly
element of oxygen is contained the Aether. And it is this Spiritual Essence of Aether, contained within the physical element of oxygen, which gives us life and enables us to function and interact here in the material realm. With each breath we take, we are inhaling both oxygen and Aether.
I have been marathoning Ramsey's Hell's Kitchen on Netflix. He refers to the room when the flow of all the planes of Spirit, Mind, Heart, Body, and Aether all are working together in harmony the "buzz".
It is that "buzz" that he strives for. That is when we know things are working. That we are in the flow and everything around us is communicating with us.
The Death card comes up again to remind me that I did just go through an intense Death process and that I have to be gentle with myself. And allow myself to heal in the ways I need to in my own time.
The Six of Wands reminds me that the concept of success is ego created trap. Even when we do encounter such feelings of "success" they are short lived. And new desires emerge. And it starts all over again. Success is not something we get it is about pride we have in ourselves. What do you have to be proud of?
I have an awful lot to be proud of. I am happy and complete now. But I must still continue to help other people... because it is my duty as a human. Not because I want success.
The Ace of Pentacles above is so beautiful. I love the colors of this deck. They have a very earthly surreal look to them. Muddy and desperate. But this deck is a wonderful ally when wanting to understand your emotions more. And the dramas that arise from them.
The Six of Cups from this deck shows a little girl reaching out to a bear. I am not trying to shove myself down anyone's throats... yet I am not intimidated by anyone either. You are welcome to be my friend.
The Booklet reads, "Stepping outside the confines of social structure, we can find ways to connect with others. These others may be ones we normally overlook. The ways we connect certainly do surprise us."
I have a friend in New York that texts me good morning everyday. I have a best friend in Canada and we are always there for each other. I have met the most amazing people on this Tarot journey of mine. And I am so excited to watch it grow even more.
The Emperor. Geez. Healing the Father. I just underwent a major overhaul on my feminine energies and right back to dad to balance it out. The Knight of Cups... The Wave. The Movement. The Love. Neptune in Pisces is doing its work on me.
I have found the cure for my divided mind. You know they say that when students study psychology they think they have everything in the book. This is true... because I think a real good doctor understands what people go through. It creates resonance and empathy. We are experienced. I think of Dr. Drew my hero. OMG I LOVE THAT MAN SO MUCH. I want to eat him.
I am in the flow... the Six of Pentacles... that you get what you give... only if you are willing to receive. And baby... I'm ready to receive. Big time. Because I have done the work. In the Six of Wands. I won.
The Queen of Swords. I see clearly. The Knight of Swords shows that I now know how to wield that power. The Ace of Swords. The power of the mind. It is beautiful... and amazing. Magical and exciting. Tarot really did teach me a lot about how my brain works. How my entire body works.
The Chariot. I wonder what it is that will be created from this. It is just so much bigger than us. We are just pawns. Well... I know I am not a pawn... then I very well must be a Knight.
"The knight is the most unique chess piece you have! Not only does it usually resemble a horse, it is the only chess piece that can jump over another chess piece or pieces according to chess rules. The knight's move is rather different. Think of the move as "L" shaped - two squares either forward, backward, left, or right and then left or right one square. This special feature, being able to jump, can make the knight a very useful chess piece early in the game."
Being able to JUMP can make someone very useful in a game a chess.
I suppose you could say that Knights DEFY the laws of the game.
Although I feel stuck right now.. in the Two of Swords... I cannot see what those opportunities are... I know they are there. I just need to JUMP (The Fool) and trust (The Empress).
The Chariot holds the reigns of the Emperor and the Empress. Conscious masculine and the conscious feminine. We are in control. We are steering the ship. We can choose whether or not to keep the course... that right there is free will.
The Three of Pentacles comes up. It is about my life's work. It is not just the daily grind. It is my passion made manifest. Mind Body and Spirit. Not just working for the money. The Four of Pentacles again showing that I am about to receive in a very big way. All because of the work I have done this month with the Sun card. The Sun is the center of the Universe and it is reflected in my soul.
The Five of Cups comes up. Tarot is hitting me hard with these Fives. Remember!!! Fives are about love!!! There is opportunity lying within the rumble of the Tower and Death. New growth is sprouting from the ruin.
The Tower!!! Oh woah is me... the Tower. I love this card. I have such a deep understanding of the Universe that this card always want I want in my life. Excitement!!! Change.
CHANGE IS GREAT!!!!
I drew up the Tower again over the Five of Cups. Driving home its point. That any catastrophe on the outside is only going to drive us inward. To find our security inside ourselves. Because the Truth is THERE IS NO SECURITY. It does not exist.
How do you like them apples?
It is tough for the ego to chew. Especially when our entire external world does nothing but try to provide us with a false sense of security. Some are defined by clothes, some by their car, their job, their stocks, their retirement, flipping the tassels on their floor rug in the living room at 2 am in the morning.
To each their own. They are all desperate attempts to find some sort of feeling of safety. These behaviors, these patterns, these constructs we build for ourselves can sometimes turn on us. When we begin to grow beyond their comfort. They then start to stunt our growth.
Everyone is all so afraid of Tarot. I am beyond trying to defend myself. I have come to the comfortable conclusion that I will not punish myself for other people's stupidity. I will not censor or suppress myself for your delicate sensibilities. I am happy. I got that way from these 78 cards. It was my way. So it may not be your way... but you are not me.
I read a WatchTower magazine one time. It had the Tower, the Devil, and Death on there and it said how they were the Devil doings. Let's let the Devil speak for himself.
The Hierophant. The Devil is sad that religion has made him look like the bad guy. Pagan are the only ones that understand him. He knows his image changes over the civilizations that have come and gone and he had his place in each of them. But he wishes that people will get over it all already and start using him to create wonderful things instead of being scared of him... and living in destitution.
Then the religions put the blame on him!!! He works with desire... he does not tell you WHAT to desire. That's all you. If you feel it isn't like it is something outside of yourself controlling you... wake up... it is still you... you chose to divide your consciousness from that aspect of yourself and until you own it... it will never release its grip on you.
Since the Devil is the master shapeshifter I figured we would pull an Oracle card on him.
"At this time you are more vulnerable than ever before. You are as a child, a babe, and you are so fragile. I say this not to alarm you, or to instill in you a belief in weakness, for you will grow strong in time. But for now, I will protect you. Perhaps she is a result of shifting DNA and genes.
Like a newborn babe who is fresh from the sea of the womb to the world of breathe and air we feel overwhelmed from re-birthing ourselves. We need mentors to assist us in moving into a world we suddenly can hear and feel without becoming overwhelmed or rushing back to a familiar less sensitive state, because it seems falsely safe.
We need guidance, protection, and companionship from those whose senses are refined, honed and blade-sharp- and who are fearless in their use!!!
This card signifies fierce protection surrounding you. It says... have no fear"
When we have the protection of the invisible world... nothing in the physical world can touch us. There is nothing to fear... but fear itself.